I just came across this picture of when I thought I was clearly taking part in “I’m a Ghanian Celebrity, Get Me Out Of Here!” where I was in some random jungle and when I was afraid.. because I HATE heights and there were wooden planks missing and do I look like I have a safety harness on?
In spite of some shitty medical results I’ve been given and ones I’m waiting to receive a DAY BEFORE I FLY (in four days!) I have to remember I can’t control what life throws at me – be it the results, the timings or the future. I can get upset at the fact I may have to keep coming home at points throughout my travels ..but I KNOW I am a strong person.. and I cannot let myself sink .. I must swim (thanks Papa Nags for your holy words and my best friend Casey for your strong reminders 😂). Looking at this picture, I can remember that fear is always the same – just hidden in different disguises that always tells you you don’t have what it takes to conquer it- whether it’s crossing a rickety-probably has zero insurance on it- bridge, or being told about shitty test results I could do without .. but I CONQUERED THE FEAR OF THE BRIDGE so I can conquer whatever it is that tries to throw me down. Just because there are difficulties in my journey, doesn’t mean the journey is over. Just because I may have to come back a few times to fly back out, doesn’t mean the trip is wasted – JUST because it’s happening a different way to how I wanted, doesn’t mean life is bad. Maybe life is a Ghanian bridge (I can feel a great metaphor coming!) and we’ve just got to figure out our own way of crossing it.. “If a problem is fixable, if a situation is such that you can do something about it, then there is no need to worry. If it’s not fixable, then there is no help in worrying. There is no benefit in worrying whatsoever.” ― (thanks Dalai Lama)